Running toward a cure … AGAIN

June 26, 2011

Once again I’ve joined The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society’s Team in Training (TNT). This is my fourth summer with TNT. People have asked me why I continue to do TNT — it’s a lot of work to fundraise and train for a marathon. Couldn’t I just do a marathon without TNT?

Sure, I could. But I want to do TNT. With TNT I run to raise funds and support The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society’s (LLS) mission of finding a cure for leukemia, lymphoma, Hodgkin’s disease, and myeloma, and improving the quality of life of patients and their families. One person in the United States is diagnosed with a blood cancer approximately every four minutes. New cases of leukemia, lymphoma and myeloma will account for 9 percent of new cancer cases diagnosed in the United States this year. Research funded by LLS has developed treatments and therapies that benefit patients with cancers other than blood cancers. LLS also has a program to provide financial assistance to patients in need; this program is supported entirely by public contributions. LLS receives no federal funding. In the 20+ years since its inception, TNT participants have raised more than $1 billion to support LLS’ blood cancer research and patient services.

Me, Equinox Marathon 2010

Me during the 2010 Equinox Marathon. Photo courtesy of Ned Rozell.

I also do TNT because of Stephanie, my sister who battled Hodgkin’s lymphoma for seven years before losing her fight. And because of my mother, Uncles Owen and Irv, cousins Michelle, Geetie, Shandi, JoLynn and Julie, and Dov, Lynn, Kathy, Skip, Marna, Sharon, Anne-Marie, Don, Connie, Andrew and … the list of family and friends with cancer continues to grow.

TNT helped me complete the 26.2-mile Equinox Marathon twice. The Equinox is one of the most difficult marathons in North America and right in my backyard. This year, in addition to participating in the Equinox Marathon & Relay in Fairbanks on September 17, 2011, I’m training for the Nike Women’s Marathon in San Francisco on October 16. I’ve committed to follow the training program and train with the team on weekends. I’m also dedicated to raising at least $2,500 in donations to help LLS further its mission.

You can help with my mission by making a generous, 100% tax-deductible donation to help me and the Team reach our goals. Any amount you give will help — it all adds up! With TNT, 75% of every donation goes directly to research and patient services. Plus, donations of $100 or more are eligible to receive one Alaska Airlines Mileage Plan mile for every dollar donated. My personal fundraising deadline is coming up, so I’d appreciate if you made your contribution before July 31. I will be able to accept donations after this date, and until September 6, but why wait?

Please go to my personal fundraising page to donate online quickly and securely plus learn more about my progress.  You will receive a confirmation of your donation by e-mail and I will be notified as soon as you make your donation.

Thanks in advance for your generous support!


Back on the trail

May 26, 2010

Apparently last year’s Equinox Marathon wasn’t enough, ’cause I’m doing it again. Why? Because it turns out I’m a runner. And because I love running with Team in Training. My TEAMmates are amazing: fun, encouraging, crazy, and dedicated. And we all want to help The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society (LLS) in finding a cure for leukemia, lymphoma, Hodgkin’s disease, and myeloma, and improving the quality of life of patients and their families.

Most importantly, I’m doing this for Stephanie, who I miss more than I ever imagined and who I think about during every run I do. I’m doing this for my Mom, Uncle Owen, cousins Michelle & Shandi, (too) numerous friends like Lynn & Kathy, and everybody else whose body, family, and friends have been affected by cancer.

The Equinox Marathon is tough, and so is training for it. But I’m determined and committed, just like I’m committed to helping LLS further their mission. I’m going to need all the help I can get, whether it’s encouragement, advice, or a tax-deductible donation to help me and the TEAM reach our goals. Stay tuned …


A marathon of irony

September 22, 2009

I successfully completed the Equinox Marathon on Saturday, September 19, 2009. That’s the short version of race day. But I want the long version in writing so I don’t forget, and so anyone who wants to know the details can read it, so here goes…

Leading up to race day

Equinox Marathon course profile

Equinox Marathon course profile

The week leading up to race day was an emotional roller coaster, full of ups and downs much like the Equinox race course. Sunday the TEAM had our final training run together and I finally got to see the whole out-and-back portion of the race trail (approximately miles 12.4 to 17). We had a potluck after practice to celebrate, but it was bittersweet knowing that it was the last practice we’d have together this year. All week I’d range from being excited and eager to doubtful and terrified, which I hear are perfectly normal symptoms of “taper madness.” My coaches, TEAMies, friends, and family all assured me that my feelings were normal but that I was ready and could do this.

The first folks from the out of town TEAM arrived on Wednesday and several of us met at Silver Gulch for dinner. It was nice to see friends from last year’s TEAM and meet some of the new ones too. Thursday night was the TEAM inspiration dinner, which is a chance for the TEAM and guests to get together and get ramped up for the marathon and relay. We got our TEAM shirts for race day, recognized the TEAM sponsors, coaches, and mentors, and shared some sources of inspiration to get us through the marathon. I talked about Stephanie and how she continues to inspire me. I also shared a list that her friend wrote for her, and shared at her funeral, of “Lessons we learned from Stephanie.” Steve, the awesome race director for the Equinox, came to the dinner too and brought our race bibs, shirts, and water bottles. I played tour guide on Friday and took some of the out of town guests to visit a mushing kennel and on a tour at the Large Animal Research Station (a.k.a. the muskox farm). The race hosted a pre-race pasta feed (and bib pick-up) at The Pump House restaurant on Friday evening, which is a good chance to carbo-load and visit with other participants. I laid out all my clothes for race day, pinned my bib on my shirt, attached the TNT “toe-tag” to my running shoes, packed up way too many options for extra clothes and food, charged and packed my iPod and GPS, and went to bed relatively early in hopes of being decently rested for the big day.

Race day (finally!)

I got up Saturday morning and tried to stay calm as I went through my morning prep. I ate an “Elvis bagel,” a whole wheat bagel (from Lu Lu’s Bread & Bagel, of course) with peanut butter and banana, drank some coffee, did the usual morning chores, loaded up the car, and off we went. There was a pre-race meeting in the Patty Center gym then we went outside to the start area. The starter’s pistol went off at 8 a.m. and up the hill we went.

The hill at the start of the Equinox marathon

The hill at the start of the Equinox marathon

I was nervous about the first leg of the race because there were parts I’d only seen once before. I was also nervous because it had rained the day and night before and I worried that the trail would be muddy and slippery. However the trail was quite nice and stayed that way the entire course! I first saw Chris at the intersection of Ballaine and Yankovich and had warmed up enough that I handed him my jacket. Shortly after that my teammate Linda caught up with me and we ended up running/walking most of the rest of that leg of the race either together or close by. The first leg was really fun as there were lots of spectators still around even when us slowpokes came by. My teammate and friend Donna’s son was working at one of the trail crossings and gave me a good cheer on. And there were other people I knew cheering us on at various places along the trail.

At the muskox farm and just past the mile 5 marker on the Equinox course

At the muskox farm and just past the mile 5 marker on the Equinox course. Linda is right behind me.

Before I knew it, we were coming down the trail along the muskox farm to the mile 5 marker. Chris was there and topped off my water bottle before I headed onto the ski trails. The race course follows the ski trails until the intersection of Miller Hill and Yankovich—an intersection quite familiar to me as we go through it to get to or from our house.

Equinox trail from Miller Hill/Yankovich to Lawlor

Equinox trail from Miller Hill/Yankovich to Lawlor

Chris was there too with a big smile and his iPhone to take a photo. Linda and I kept each other company all the way to Sheep Creek Road, where she finally saw her family. Coach Kevin was waiting to check on his TEAM as we approached the intersection of Sheep Creek and Ester Dome Road, just before the first relay exchange point. He gave me a big smile and said I looked good moving along there. I felt good and was pleased with how things were going, but next up was Ester Dome…

I’ve been up Ester Dome on the race trail many times before, but this trip felt like the longest. Linda pulled ahead of me here, but I caught back up to her after she took a pit stop in the woods. She thought we were still moving along decently, and we continued up the hill. New for the race this year was that they didn’t allow vehicles up Ester Dome past N. Henderson Road; it was great not having to dodge cars while heading up the hill. Chris met me at that intersection and walked with me to the top. Coach Liz met us along the way. When I told her that this felt like the longest trip up Ester Dome ever, she grinned and replied, “It’s supposed to feel like that. You’re doing great!”

I too needed a pit stop in the woods, but decided to wait and used the port-a-potty at the top (mile 12.4). Turns out this was a BIG mistake, although I still am not sure why. After my potty break, I got my jacket back from Chris (it was chilly up there), topped off my water bottle, and headed for the out-and-back.

Heading out the Equinox out-and-back

Heading out the Equinox out-and-back

A few yards later I saw my teammate Dawniel heading toward the chute and friend/former teammate Adrianna coming to give me a hug and encouragement. It was about then that I noticed sharp pain in my right knee. Adrianna got worried and called to Megan, the TNT race day coordinator, to come check on me. Megan was in the middle of checking on someone else and said she’d catch up. I continued along the out-and-back and the pain continued. First bit of Equinox irony: prior to race day, I hadn’t had any trouble with my right knee. Megan finally caught up to me and joked that I was a hard person to catch. We talked about how I was feeling and figured it was my iliotibial, or IT, band, which is a ligament that runs from the hip, down the outside of the thigh, and along the outside of the knee to the shin. Next Equinox irony: it hurt MUCH worse on the downhills. Normally I love the downhills partly because I can easily run them. Plus, most of the race course after the out-and-back is downhill. Megan kept me company as I limped along the out-and-back. She was so cute; she has a fear of wildlife and said she never would have done this trail by herself. She also repeatedly commented on how crazy we all were for doing this race. Yes. Yes, we are. We saw several TEAMies who all smiled and shared words of encouragement, even if they felt poorly, like Christine, who was sick and “felt like ass” plus had pain in her ass (also an IT band issue). My teammate Laurie caught up to us. She’s a massage therapist and I recently had an appointment with her. I told her my knee was broken and she stopped to try to help it with some massage. Then she said she’d do it again on the way back. At the turnaround point on the course, there’s a water station with fruit and cookies. Even though I was carrying energy chews, a cookie sounded really good—and the chocolate chip one I had really hit the spot. Chris met me as I emerged from the out-and-back. He was worried. Laurie had given him some arnica for me to take, so I took some and continued on.

I always take my time going down the infamous chute, but I took extra time during the race. I knew it would be one of the worst parts of the trail for my knee, although it turned out that the trail after the chute was the worst. The next part of the course is usually one of my favorite parts of the trail—it goes gradually downhill through some lovely forest—but not today. Any time I tried to pick up the pace, the pain would worsen, sometimes to the point of not holding my weight. I took lots of breaks and tried to stretch and massage my IT band to ease the pain enough to continue. I sobbed at the thought that I might not be able to finish and would let all my friends and supporters down, let alone me. Somehow I made it through the woods and out onto Henderson Road.

Shortly thereafter I saw a figure dressed in black heading up the road toward me. I realized it was Kevin and felt the tears coming back. Through my sobs I told him that I hurt so bad. He already knew and said he was going to ask me some questions to evaluate whether or not he’d let me continue. I knew what the first question would be and told him, “10, well, 9 at the moment.” I don’t even remember all of the questions, but he figured that I probably hadn’t torn anything, which was good. Kevin said that Chris was waiting at the intersection with St. Patrick Road and they had a plan to try to get me to the finish line. Lucky for me we had a cooler for my extra beverages and several ice packs to keep them cool. Kevin had brought an ace bandage and wrapped the ice pack against my knee. I also took some ibuprofen and kept on down the road. Kevin said he’d go on ahead and meet back up with me to see if that had helped. I was hobbling along Henderson when I heard a vehicle slow down next to me. It was Drew, Chris’ step-cousin, who is a very good runner and finished fifth overall in this year’s Equinox. He rooted me on and asked if I needed any water. Too cool. A few minutes later a car approached from in front of me; it was Kristen and Tina coming to cheer me on. Kristen’s husband and daughter were relatively close to me (I guess it really slows a person down when you have to carry or push a small child the whole way), so they went back and forth cheering. Kristen is another amazing runner, and has a lifetime membership to the Equinox Marathon, but had the flu and was forced to scratch this year. Tina decided fairly late to enter this year’s race, yet ended up finishing 20th among the women. More coolness.

The Equinox trail along the powerline parallel to Goldhill Road.

The Equinox trail along the power line parallel to Goldhill Road. Adrianna and Megan were waiting for me and Kevin.

Kevin met me again on Goldhill Road and walked with me as the trail turned off the road onto a power line trail. The ice and ibuprofen had helped some and I was moving a little better at that point. Before reaching the power line, there was an unofficial water stop known for providing beverages in addition to just water and Powerade. Kevin joked about getting me something else for the pain and asked if they had any whiskey. The couple at the stop said no but they could probably make a bloody mary. The man there offered me ibuprofen, then the woman, much to the man’s surprise, said she could give me some vicodin. Not really, but the suggestion was funny anyway. Kevin kept me company the entire length of the power line and even commented that my energy level seemed really good. I half-joked that it was because I was having to walk all the time rather than run. Chris, Megan, and Adrianna were waiting at the water stop at the end of the power line. They did a cute, three person version of the wave for us. Between the company and cheering section, my spirits were better and I felt I could make it to the finish. Donna’s son, Ian, drove by at one point and gave me a cheer; what a sweetie. Kristen came by again after checking on her family, and I kept plodding along.

Chris waited every mile and a half or so to see how I was doing and make sure I had any food or drink that I needed. He was so awesome all day! By the time I got to the end of Goldhill, I was ready for a push to the finish. Chris and Adrianna met me there. I handed Chris my water bottle and pack, then Adrianna joined me for part of the last 1.2 miles, including the “heartbreak hill” at mile 25, and I sent Chris on to the finish line.

Bonni and Peggy joined us, cheering, as we emerged from the ski trails; they had both completed the inaugural Equinox Ultramarathon, yet still found the energy to join me for the last half mile or so. Adrianna headed off to meet us at the finish. Erica and her new puppy joined us along the road and the four of us made the final “run” to the finish line.

Finishing the 2009 Equinox Marathon with my TEAM

Finishing the 2009 Equinox Marathon with my TEAM. That's Peggy, Erica, and Bonni running with me to the finish line.

I had planned to make a sprint to the finish, and decided I’d go ahead and do that once we got to the grass. We emerged from the trees that lead to the grass and I saw a whole bunch of the TEAM waiting at the finish line. They cheered and we jogged the last few feet to the end, hand in hand. I couldn’t help but smile at the sight of everyone who had stayed long enough for me to finish, despite being cold and tired. Chris was there with my friend Carol, who had been calling to check on me and track my progress so she could meet us at the finish. I crossed the finish line and was instantly immersed in hugs and congratulations from TEAMies. The finish line crew scanned my bib, pulled the tag off my bib, and handed me my finisher’s patch with congrats. My emotions took over and the tears flowed as the hugs and congratulations came.

It’s still sinking in that I finished my first marathon, and that it was the Equinox. I would have preferred to have done it faster and with a lot less pain, but, as some of my TEAMies said, it’s a PR (personal record) and I’ve set the bar nice and low to have a new PR when I do this again next year.


Santa Claus Half Marathon

August 8, 2009

For this week’s long run, the Team in Training TEAM participated in the 16th annual Santa Claus Half Marathon. The race starts and ends by the oil refinery in North Pole (Alaska, not THE North Pole) and does an out-and-back with a loop in the Chena River Lakes Flood Control Project. It’s a pretty flat course, except when you go on or off the dikes, on pavement, gravel, and dirt. Last year the course was rerouted due to high water in the flood control area, so this was my first time running the real race course. It had been so smoky in the area that it was anyone’s guess if the race would even happen until the race directors made the decision this morning. However instead of smoke, today we had dense fog and it felt raw and damp.

Several of us slower runners and walkers took advantage of the early start time for “those needing more time to finish the race.” I penguined my way along the course … running some of the time … walking a lot of the time … Every so often I’d enjoy the company of one of my TEAMies for a while before they left me in the dust. The faster runners started an hour later and we knew they’d be running past us at some point. Just before mile 7, as we ran along the top of a dike, a pair of runners suddenly came flying past me. I recognized the familiar ponytail of our coach Kevin. He cruised by, gave me a quick thumbs-up, and that was the last I saw of him. I then caught up to another TEAMie and we marveled at how quickly and seemingly effortlessly those two had passed us. We kept each other company for a while and, probably around mile 8 or so, saw someone in a TNT shirt running toward us. It was coach Liz checking to see how we were doing. She traveled with me for a bit before heading off to check on other TEAMies.

I did my own thing for the rest of the race, running and walking and trying to stay out of the way of the faster runners as they passed me. Many of them said nice things, like “Great job!” or “Way to go!” or “Looking good!” as they passed. A couple of people that I knew said hello or reminded me how close to the finish we were. By the time we got back onto pavement around mile 11, I started to feel really tired. I kept pushing because I really wanted to beat my finish time from last year, but the closer I got to the finish line, the harder it was to ramp up to a run. A TEAMie ran by and gave me a big, “You’re doing great! Go TEAM!” and I thought, “Gee thanks, but I’m not doing great, I feel like crap.” Another pair of TEAMies ran by cheering me on, but instead of blowing by, one slowed to a walk and waited for me. I thanked her for the company and told her she should just go on ahead, but she replied that she was really tired and happy to walk. I wasn’t feeling very well at that point, and I think she knew that. I started to slow more and she turned and held out her hand to help keep me going. She asked me if I thought we looked totally dorky walking hand in hand, but we decided we didn’t care. When we finally reached the final turn onto the grass to the finish chute, we decided to sprint our way in. We held our hands up as other TEAMies and total strangers cheered for us. I have no idea what my official finish time was, although I think I just barely beat last year’s time, but it really doesn’t matter much ’cause I’ve got my TEAM behind me no matter how I do.


Purple toes

June 7, 2009

May 30 would have been my sister Stephanie’s birthday. The first year after she died, I wasn’t sure how to deal with her birthday. After discussing my dilemma with a friend, I decided that I would celebrate Stephanie’s birthday by doing things she would have enjoyed: a pedicure, a decadent dessert involving chocolate, and some shopping (or at least window shopping). I had never had a pedicure before, but Stephanie loved them. I’ve been going to the same place for the past three years and had a nice, relaxing, spa-type pedicure, complete with a foot mask and massage. I love being able to kick back and relax and think about how much Stephanie would have enjoyed my experience. And I get this feeling like I’m sort of spiritually connected to her during the pedicure.

Unfortunately this year the salon canceled my pedicure THAT morning. ARGH! I found another salon that could fit me in and got my pedicure. The pedicure was okay, but not what I needed (and not the best pedicure either). The people were friendly, but chatty. I wanted to zen-out. I had a hard time choosing a color too. I finally settled on a nice, fun shade of purple.

Purple toes with Buddy toes

Purple toes with Buddy toes

Purple also happens to be an official Team in Training color, and my toes are pretty close to that purple. I didn’t do that on purpose though 🙂